Good morning everyone!!!  Have you missed me?? It has been forever since I have been here, and I do mean forever!!!  But I am alive!! And well!! Here is the quick update:

1) I now live in West Tx.  We just moved out here in June.  Jobs are amazing out here.  Housing, not so much...but jobs are!!

2) I am still with Robert.  We have been happily together for three years now!!  Amazing!!!

3) The twins are now 16yrs old, Lynsie is 15yrs old and Jacob will be 14 next week!!  Time has flown by!!

4) Jacob is in public school still, but the oldest three chose to go back to homeschooling!! We just started back to homeschooling yesterday!!

I promise to update more now that we are back into the world of computers etc...

Okay, as you know my four children are in public school and my fiance is in the hospital with cancer, which is now removed.  So here I am, a woman who took vacation so I could get children to school and cutie out of the hospital. 

I don't get child-support.  I support my own children.  With that said, their father has paid one of my bills a time or two.  Has bought the children clothes here or there and paid for Lyns to get hair extensions for the start of school.  I, however, had paid the fees that needed paid for school (its a charter school--a good mix between public and private) I have bought school clothes (i.e. uniforms) and school supplies.  All in all, Robert and I have put in probably over $1000 this past month or so to be sure the children get a darn good education.

Of course they come home with the list of things they need by tomorrow.  Which would be fine under normal circumstances but to say the least I am broke.  Really broke...just had $15.  So I text their dad to ask for money...VERY rarely do I do that...and I mean VERY!  Of course he can't help.  So I am down to four bucks and am a bit miffed I was not offered any help for the children.  Granted they were at his house all summer (three days on and three days off and the boys stayed more there than here) 

So I am getting over this...and Lyns tells me she has to write a paper for school.  "The Most Important Person in Her Life"  Me, "Oh yeah, who did you pick?"  Her, "dad."  WHAT???  I am busting my butt, driving them to and from school every day, up early to make lunches, encouraging them to join clubs, hoping Jacob joins band.....listening to the alphabet in Turkish (yes the three big ones are taking Turkish) I am the one who is washing clothes, and working 12hr days.  I am giving up my dream to move to Ft. Worth so my children can feel settled for once.  Robert is as well......and these are not his children.  I am settling for a life here, that has me kicking and screaming for their sakes...and she chooses him.   I know it's selfish to say "what about me?"  But really---WHAT ABOUT ME?  Hell a Thank you would have been nice.  *sigh*  children....one day....

So this evening I am lying down reading...hoping my feet aren't getting the bedding dirty (just got a new set and love it...and love it clean! LOL  Micro-something in a nice toupe)  and Jacob comes up and lies on me and tells me "your a perfect mom."  WHAT??  First thought, of course...."what does he want."  I tell him, "I know this past year has not been easy on you"  And for him it has been the hardest as change is not his thing.  Then Jacob says, "yeah, but you always tried to make sure I felt better."  I almost cried.  (just not a crier...but Robert will argue that with you over the course of the past week.)  Honestly....the boy blew me away. 

I am enjoying settling into this life....its weird for me....VERY...but oddly enough I feel settled.  Actually found a house I wouldn't mind buying.  I loved the yard and the style... and it was brick...what is up with that?????  Once Ro-Bear (Robert in French) feels better maybe I will call and make an appt to see it??  hmmmm